Thursday, March 18, 2010

Adult = Job = Bills

What does it mean to be an adult? really? I assumed you moved out, got a job and lived a life away from home. Maybe not the last one but the first two for sure. I was out when I was after my last day of high school and I was in another city, 3 hours away. I started paying rent when I turn 18 and was getting government money...I would cash the cheque in mom's account and take out a bit for me and the rest went to mom.

My brother just turned 24 and my sister is 22. One hasn't worked in many years and the other has a job but doesn't pay bills. It's all my mom's responsibility. Everyone sees it's just not me. Other family and friends say "why doesn't he get a job?" or "why doesn't you're mom say something?". I can't do anything.

I hear my brother throwing a fit last night....yelling and slamming doors like he did when he was 14 years old. What does he have to mad about? He has no bills or rent to worry about. Poor baby can afford smokes, drugs whatever. He throws his fit until mom or my sister throw money at him. Then he's gone. He doesn't help out....I heard mom last year tell him to mow the lawn for $20. Hell I'll do it for the $20 and pay rent and you around without asking for gas.

My sister is the baby and sure acts like it. She got to go to college while living at home for free. I was told to "move out or get a job" when I was going to Mount Royal. She's got a good job with benefits and she still complains. But does she still pay rent or Mom does. She pays the cell phone bill with 2 cell phones on it. One is suppose to be moms but it's really my brothers.

I can't believe it but i must bite my tongue and walk away. It's like seeing a loved one in an abusive relationship. Its mom's choice, all I can do is let her know I'm here if she needs me. It's what she knows, she grew up in an abusive home with brothers and sisters that were jerks, and a grandfather that was a real ass. She then live with my fucked up dad for more then 10 years. Now my brother and sister are doing it to her.

My son will not be the same. He will not grow up the way I did or end up the way they are. When he's old enough he's getting a job. Not to pay bills but so when he does move out he has some experience and make descent money. I was 24 with a 2 year old trying to find a job with no experience. He already knows being an adult equals having a job. He's very smart and hates school but I told him he needs to graduate. He knows this too.

I'm so proud of my 9 year old already.....wait until he's an adult.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

St. Pats Day ~ Volunteer Day 3

So today is St Patrick's Day. I have one shirt that I only wear this day of the year....and it has a Care Bear on it. You'd think I'd where it more but I hate the color green and I don't want strangers or even non-strangers "rubbing my belly for luck". It's also not long enough, like most women's shirts so I have to layer with a longer shirt under it. I don't layer....I hate layering. I wear a coat and that's it.

I hope to get crafting today....after my good deed of volunteering I'm going to craft.....mmmmmmm.....having a craftgasim.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Van talk

Picked the boys up from was my week to drive so I have to pick up Todd and drop him off. Todd and Leif are so much alike it's scary and things that are different are like night and day. Most of the time I hear video game talk coming formt he back seat. Today I heard "remember at camp when they told us our crotch is the hotest part of the body". They're only 9 years old.

Volunteering Day 2

Here I 2 of volunteering at Leif's school. These kids are much better then the other years I've volunteered. Either the teacher is good or grade 4 is when kids stop being little shits. I think it's both.

I should be home much to do. I have everything thing I need for the Sock Monkey swap and all but on for the the Alice in Wonderland swap. I almost thing I have too much for the AIW Swap.

Today is a bad day for crafting anyways....I'll be lucky to get anything done. Swimming lessons this for supper after swimming. Then I have to get Leif for lunch. After lunch I have to get supper done and hopefully some dishes (I'm so behind). Pick up mom and Leif at 3:15 and 3:30. Come home and finish supper...leave at 4 for more swimming. Get home at 530 feed Leif and get him ready for cubs. Leave at 6:15 to pick up Todd and drive the boys to cubs. Come home and get Doug's supper ready.....get boys from cubs at 8:30.....I'm tired just typing that.

Wish me luck!

Monday, March 15, 2010

Starting my Blog

Here i go. Starting a blog. Why? I honestly don't know why. I've been reading other peoples blog and I'm enjoying them. That seems like the thing to do on Craftster.

Right now I'm addicted to swapping. I've finished 2 and have 4 to go. One isn't on i just finished that one today. It's a Dragon Egg....I'm throwing in the dragon....

I really like making stuff for strangers. I'm not sure family and friend like homemade stuff so I try not too.